Instead of a regular letter, I decided to put some thoughts together.
Love ya mucho
Never thought to go before,
It was myself holding me back-
To ask my Heavenly Father,
If I should leave my way to accept His greater hand.
Guiding me wasn’t easy.
I put up a good fight.
Leaving it all behind me-
Am I doing the right?
It was not one answer-rather many
To realize it was not my curiosity but destiny.
All happened fast-God had waited long enough
The first flicker of the faith I planted,
Called in my weak and growing state,
To join the many.
I left thinking it would be easy.
Knocking a few doors,
Passing out pamphlets
I had no idea to put it simply.
Yet the moment I arrived
That the peace I felt
Meant that He had a plan for me to do.
Six weeks spent in a cold white room
With a group of youngsters
Buttoned shirts and ties,
All of us without a clue.
To talk about Christ,
To wear His name.
I knew who He was?
the stories and photos, from my seminary days.
I am not a sinner.
I know how to teach too.
My pride would soon learn,
That my weaknesses are more than a few.
The language didn’t come at once
Actually not at all.
I doubted that this gift existed,
To loosen my twisted tongue.
I remember my first night out.
It scared me to my knees.
How should I talk to people,
When I sound so-o-o silly?
Who knew the missionaries walked so fast?
Took a great force to keep the pace.
Now I have more profound respect,
For the pioneers who treked across the plain.
Slowly and steadly I learned my role.
Yet with each step forward came 3 steps back.
We taught about this Atonement,
Where He suffered and paid for all.
I realized this meant more than a historical fact,
But was the way to save myself from-
My own Fall.
Now here I am,
Writing this to you.
Feeling this profound love,
For all He has asked me to do.
I could not imagine
How much He would form me.
To take me in my broken state,
Opening my eyes to the reality.
The gospel of Christ is not a club,
It is not a good idea,
Rather it is the plan from Above.
We are children of a God,
Put in this state of faith.
To do everything in our power,
Then trust in His grace and wait.
Giving up our will to His
Can be like a jump in the darkness,
But with the greatest given certainty,
Of a landing in all He has promised.
The mission has no end this is true,
Because we live in a world where this is much to do.
Forget these shiny worldly distracciones,
Follow the living prophet, and put our faith, hope, and love into action.